Actually I hate my now,feeling is not generally lousy.NO one will know and understand.意思?

Actually I hate my now,feeling is not generally lousy.NO one will know and understand.意思?
Actually I hate my now,feeling is not generally lousy.NO one will know and understand.意思?

Actually I hate my now,feeling is not generally lousy.NO one will know and understand.意思?
事实上我很讨厌现在的自己,感觉不是一般的讨厌,没有人知道也没有人了解我.